falling for an angel ♥ ♥

AND I'LL GO.

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the long December rain is falling now,

running down on streets to nowhere,

music is my life you're my sweetest nightingale,

but i can't hear it here no more.

AND I'LL GO.

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hujan lebat mencurah kini,

bagaikan tiada henti,

kaulah laguku kau irama terindah,

tak lagi kudengari.

KAU PERGI.

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-talentime's I'LL GO/PERGI by pete yeo/aizat-

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the movie i watched SIX times in THREE days.

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one of yasmin ahmad's best films casting young talented people from different walks of life.

a story full of joy and pain, hope and despair.

with a host of beautifully written songs.
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it's currently playing on astro box office and watching it over and over again isnt making me sick but pulling me more and more into the story. oh dear, and my trials are just days away.

i even composed the song I'LL GO on my organ :D

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the cast.

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speech and hearing impaired boy who falls in love with melur.

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one of the seven finalists of the talentime competition organised by her school.

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one more of the seven finalists.

has a cancer striken mother who eventually dies.

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the best looking person in the film definitely.

also one of the seven finalists.

eventually gives up his competition for hafiz. (the part that made me cry)

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mahesh's sister.

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somebody needs to get rid of the ABO channel at home.

anyway that's it for now. i'm just still very hyper about this movie.

it IS an awesome movie. thumbs up yasmin!

and btw, i will try to get the song up on my blog soon!

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ELENA HAS TO STUDYYYY.

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xoxo

because i believe.

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I believe for every drop

of rain that falls, a flower grows.

I believe that somewhere

in the darkest night, a candle glows.

I believe for every one

who goes astray,

someone will come,

to show the way.

BECAUSE I BELIEVE.

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I believe above the storm,

the smallest prayer

will still be heard.

I believe that someone

in the great somewhere,

hears every word.

BECAUSE I BELIEVE.

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take me as i am :)

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"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."

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elena is back to blogging. it's a beautiful sunday, i'm feeling much better than usual, besides the fact that i think i'm gonna fall sick again. i'm still upset malaysia lost in the badminton doubles semi-finals match yesterday. but they played well. thumbs up! everytime i don't blog, i feel like there's trezillion things to blog about. days pass, things are forgotten. very usual stuff. so now when i'm actually at the computer, i have no idea what to type. SIGHH.

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these are the family photoshoot pics. my uncle has not been photoshopped in yet so it's not the final ones. but anyway, i'm loving them!

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the 1991's

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the kiddos of the familia

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my awesome fam.

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dadi with the second generation.

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the third and most awesome generation LOL

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with our favourite uncle, CHA CHA we love you!

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when they were all waiting for me!

pretty-fying my self in the room! OOOPS.
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the main photos.

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I LURVEEE THE PUNJABI SIDE OF MY FAMILYYY.

more pics in my latest album on fb, the fantabulous familia.

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the kitten behind my house transferred to the front now. and it is so cute. coming to what me and mum have been thinking about, it's our Puss Puss's brother/sister. yet to know the gender. or maybe Puss reincarnated! i have a new friend!

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and PUSS PUSS, i miss you so-damn-much.

i will never forget the times you put a smile on my face. ily.
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story no 3, we finally went to MCKL again. i did miss all of them heaps. bry, sze, bhinesh, dini, saveen, edward, waihoe, and everyone else. besides the fact we had some miscommunication problems before i left taylors. sorry sze, bry. i know you both still love me! dini was sick unfortunately, hope you're feeling much better hun. xx

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bhinesh : so hows college?

savira : better than yours.

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yes it was her first time to mckl, she surely did have fun. xD
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the continuation of my story. i've come to realise that sometimes whatever you wish for doesn't neccesarily come to you. i know God has always been giving me everything i wanted, i feel like a miracle child, and i do feel bad for asking more. each time i think about the whole situation, i go back to see about why the hell i'm feeling so upset when there might be a different meaning to whatever's happening. be positive elena. you can do this! i quote, perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears so that we can see life with a clearer view again.

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and so my freaking trials are in two weeks time and i'm already going crazy. i know nuts about chemistry! there's like nothing for me to look forward to besides my birthday.

so it's trials, my birthday, FINALS! sighh. i need a time machine badly.

i shall be taking a short break from blogging.

and lastly, happy assumption feast day!

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my current addiction : heartbreaker by will i am and cheryl cole. (i know it's old)
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XOXO

tell me why.

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i don't know what i'm currently feeling but what i know is that i definitely should not be feeling this way. on one hand, i'm happy with everything i have and on the other, i'm upset because some things i've actually worked and prayed for doesn't seem like it belongs to me. honestly, i've always been avoiding this certain something just to realise that it all piled up and gradually became a bigger problem. yes, i admit i was worried about people around and i did fall into their trap, but now i've become smarter and i do realise there's much more to all this. i'm sick and tired of current things. it's true, i always knew that this will either make or break me. just when i really need to forget everything, it's haunting me much more than ever, and no, ignoring me isn't helping. i thought you were different, i know you are. i did blow away so many chances and i regret. now tell me, why am i feeling this way? when i can just jump to a whole new story easily? i feel weird, and i think i'm getting myself into hell-a-lot of unnecessary confusion. it feels like as though my whole body is tearing apart. and i AM trying to tell myself that this is only a slip, not a fall. i do not believe that at the end of the day, the good people suffer. and with this little respect i still have for you, i want to make things better. i'm afraid i've to just let go. maybe things are telling me to, but something is stopping me. and it clearly becomes very difficult when i insist on holding on to things which very dearly have gone beyond my control. elena, let-freaking-go! release yourself from imaginary chains. life is too short to hold on to things that do not make sense anymore! but it's like i'm stuck. someone slap me and help me realise that i'm only human. sigh help me. till then, i shall believe in the power of prayer and wait for awesome me to come back. :D ily.
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" with God, all things are possible"

goodbye :(

sigh i can't believe everything's over!

all those extremely fun times, i'm missing you guys so badly already. we all are :(

everyday was a new story and every night was a late night. LOL

now like everyone says, it's back to shitty reality.

freaking books, fugly homework, trials, FINALSS! o.O

did i not say time will fly this fast? why oh why??

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anyway, happy belated raksha bandhan everyone!

punjabi style of sisters appreciating their brothers :)

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sanjay and sunny claim we don't do any work in granny's. here's proof losers!
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fam photoshoot. these are our version of pics. the real ones are yet to come :D

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ARCHERY! my first and definitely not last time :D

I ROCKK!
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rajesh's and henny's engagement.

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sunway's bloody screampark. it's worth the price and name. yes we did scream our lungs out.

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more pics in my latest album on fb! i gotta feeling.

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azlan iskandar! malaysian squash player :D

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12:34:56 07/08/09

may all your wishes come true!

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the official video of the year (or maybe next ten years LOL)

by famous clowns of taylor's hartamas sigh!

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till then. XOXO.