Feu et la Glace '09

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TCSH PROM

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i shall let the pictures speak.

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now did elena not say she's gonna rock her prom?

yeayyyy! ;P
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tmr i'll be off to thailand for mum's 50th.

i dont even feel like going after watching 2012.

there's no way anyone can be excited gettin on a plane or ship after watching that movie.

and we're celebrating mum's bday on a cruise. oh jesus!

my sis has phobia of trans people. LOL i cant wait to push her to one when we get there! :D

and im guessing there'll be no facebook or anything once im there coz i'll be too busy shopping.

so yeah, miss me people!

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btw, more pics of prom in facebook :)

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and HAPPY ADVENT!

what exactly shall i ask for xmas this year? ;P
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xoxo

dont stop, make it POP! :D

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I FEEL SO CHRISTMASSY!!

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i have no idea why my house is fully decorated when i'm not even gonna be here for xmas.

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the picture below, spot santa and his son! ;P (beside the tree)

every year, i make sure they're both down there together. LOOL.

it's tradition, my tradition :D

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now, prom status : 85% COMPLETED. yeayyy!

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today was a very productive day. after stressing like shyt yesterday.

to my two lovelies, carmen and annishka, I LOVE YOU BOTHHH!

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finally decided on a freaking dress, it's the black oneee!

thanks to yoshi for webcaming with me and annish who saw me model live today morning with all four dresses. heeeee.

went to sunway earlier and walked like idiots all around.

decided that i should go gold and black and a lil red.

im limiting the red, dont wanna match any taylor's curtains there LOL.

got all my stuff like in 5 hours? and did some boxer's shopping for annish's *ehem*.

those mannequins dont really give a very pleasant sight.

and imagine three girls in a men undergarments shop laughing like jakuns. LOL

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did my make up shopping, i just have to learn how to freaking wear those fake eyelashes now.

tmr morning, i just have some very last min stuff to do.

pray, pray, pray i can find a good saloon open on a sunday.

hopefully i dont fall on my super high gold heels tmr and i bet it's gonna hurt.
ganesh already cursed me pfffft

coz IM GONNA BE TALLER THAN MOST GUYS THERE. hahah!

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THEY'RE MY BEST FRIENDS.

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BREAK THEIR HEARTS

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AND I'LL BREAK YOUR FACE!
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im talking bout- pedicure on our toes, toes

trying on all our clothes, clothes

boys blowing up our phones, phones

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DONT STOP MAKE IT POP

DJ BLOW MY SPEAKERS UP

TONIGHT, IMMA FIGHT

TILL WE SEE THE SUNLIGHT

TICK TOCK ON THE CLOCK

BUT THE PARTY DONT STOP NO.

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the very cool fake mannequin.
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LET'S SEE WHO'S GONNA ROCK PROM TMR.
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the party doesnt start till i walk in ;P
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haha xoxo.

now guess who's back! ;P

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OOOPSS

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I THINK

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I FORGOT

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HOW TO BLOG.

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:D :D :D

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it's like i cant believe everything's overrr.

6 WEEKS AINT A FREAKIN JOKE HUMANS!

my poor blog's been dead, my whole room's a mess.

since my last paper ended last friday, ive been up and about going to every freaking place i can get my ass to.

looking for a life again, LOL im proud for not giving up.

ELENA IS AWESOME.

in this whole week, ive just been shopping, SHOPPING, SHOPPINGGG.

just name the mall. heeeeeee.

movies, A CHRISTMAS CAROL, 2012. any old movies i've been wanting to watch again.

omg i feel freeeee!

however, college aint done yet for this sem, i already have loads of assignments piling up on my head. and it's not good because it has to be done before my holiday mode begins.

thailand, langkawi with the clowns, aussieland.

im skipping college next whole week for bangkok. ohdearrr.

DO WE REALLY NEED THE ASSIGNMENTS? pfffffft.

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some old pics.

diwali.

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AKON'S.

omg it was the best concert i've ever been for.

thumb's up chocolate man =)

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at one point, he literally fell right in front of me.
and i think my heart stopped beating.
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more pics on facebook!

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birthday updates.
nikkhil my darling retard of a cousin,
I AM SO SORRY,
i think the date slipped through my head.
somehow he claims i texted him, honestly i cant remember.
anyway happy sexy 18th, i know being legal doesnt make any difference to you. LOL
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bryannnnn.
ive said this before, im saying it again,
i am heartfully sorry for not being there for the dinner.
mum was being a pain but i dont blame her coz she had plans before me.
so happy awesome 18th, i know you had an amazing one!
and hope you liked the cupcakes. ;P
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things to look forward to this week.

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NEW MOON definitely.

edward cullen, taylor lautner, they need me to see who's hotter :D

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PROM.

speaking bout prom, I JUST BOUGHT A SECOND NEW DRESS but somehow im still not satisfied. the first one is a brown tube, short but i have no freaking idea how to mix and match.

like what colour goes with dark brown?

mum claims i look like im wearing my old prefect's uni. and that it's too short.

the second one is a black tube like dress with like one hang-on line that goes through my right arm. and it's not any longer than the first but black's always sexier. if i wear red shoes and accesories, like ganesh claims, i'll be wearing taylors colours which is a NO-NO!

so maybe id pick striking gold? oh dearrrr.

i still have two days to shop anyway, i need maximum shopping now.

and make up, photoshoots.

i pray it's all gonna be good.

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lastly, just a little note to you miss.

i know very well that you follow my blog, so READ THIS!

it's funny how you can talk so much bout me to your friends but they are the same ones who talk about you to me. karma honey.

i cant believe im still a threat to you, proud of myself.

people like you just never give up on competition, it's the same thing thats gonna bring you down one day. or it already has? sadly.

i dont know what game you're playing, all i know is that im not interested and ive never been either. what fun do you get out of all this crap?

thank god im away now, wtv you're going through is exactly what i didnt want.

you just have to leave my cousin and her friends alone. stop making them hate you more.

and yes, so what if im the only girl in my gang??!?

those people are the same ones who live few seconds away from me, they go to college with me, i go out with them, they can come into my house anytime and anyday they want.

and you claim my dad doesnt know, my dad aint dumb, sorry.

IM NOT THE ONE WHO HAS TO LIE ABOUT THE TRIPS I GO FOR.

like how you did to your own friends.

and i dont go after my friends boyfriends, you really have to get out of the desperate zone.

so next time, i suggest you get your facts right before opening that poisonous disgusting mouth of yours.

keep following my blog honey.

and ENVY ME.

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andddd, my blog has been pretty emo all this while.

THERE'S NOTHING LIKE THAT ANYMORE i promise.

ive come to realise that that life is worth much more than all those bullshyt.

dont cry because it's over, smile because it happened :)

im waiting to rock prom and all my vacations.

it's gonna be a pretty amazing time!

and to all you girls who have some very emo posts in your own blogs,

just stay positive, honestly things arent as bad as you think.

if anything has to happen, it will happen.

cheer up loveliess! :D

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to all you SPM-ers, gooood luck.

trust me, enjoy the moment. LOL

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and thats it for now.

xoxo

take time to realise.

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" Those who wish to sing will always find a song "

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oh dear, it's actually been some time since i last blogged. everytime i feel like blogging, i'd tell myself its okay i can do it after exams. but a few mins wouldnt kill :)

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UPDATES.

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diwali was super duper awesome this year. i had the most amazing weekend and it doesnt even feel like im sitting for my finals now. LOL.

anyway managed to do some very last min shopping with divya and saveen. omg i badly needed those new punjabi suits. thanks guys. and sav, i wouldnt forget that guy who kinda scolded you coz you didnt know how to speak punjabi and you're a SARDAR!

from one open house i had to pick, i eventually went for SIX! haha

gope mamaji's. godma's. saveen's. ishvin's. dadi's. yoshnee's.

thank you dadddy i love you :D

very happy with the money i collected, most imp we had fun! camwhoring teeehee!

pictures will be up once savira finds her freaking camera. because i do not wanna upload mine first then hers. might as well do it once. pretty annoying uploading pics on fb.

but mind you, those are some very awesome pics we have :D

eventhough im a lil too late, happy diwali ya'll!

yes ming, i'll pass you some muruku soon :)
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ELENA IS GOING FOR AKON'S THIS SATURDAY NIGHT!

i know although i havent gotten 100% permission, my ticket is secured. YEAYYY.

it's not my fault he bloody postponed the concert last time. anyway thank you god it still isnt the very stressful exam week. so maybe if i study real hard now, i can spare a few hours for the concert :D

just hoping menstruation doesnt strike. LOOL.

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happy sexy 18th ganesh and savira!

sorry for the late post.

ganesh, my wannabe younger bro. LOL

and savira, my other half, partner in crime and everything else.

thanks sze for planning ganesh's thing (although i did help)

and savira, i owe you!

heart heart.

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although i almost gave up on my alevels, thinking about it, maybe i should just give it a try. it's true that i do not give up easily. NOT AL ALL. this time so many things brought me down. sigh this is just not me. but ive come to a conclusion that it's no harm doing my best.

it's OCT 20TH today, only one more month for me to burn the midnight oil and die studying.

hope never abandons you, you abandon it.

what else do i need to think about in this one month? NOTHING.

i've left so many ugly memories behind and i know i can move on.

come on elena, you have to prove this.

i dont wanna disappoint anybody this time. i cannot afford to.

so yeah, to all you idiots who dropped my spirit, WATCHOUT.

if you thought you never had to worry bout me, maybe you should now.

and like i said, i've no time for all your crap.

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so thats it for now. off to watch the biggest loser :)

i will be blogging again after exams, hopefully.

xoxo

memoirs of an imperfect angel :)

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and finally, IT'S OVERR! i think.

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well it's not that i'm happy saying this, but it's a huge HUGE relieve getting every shyt outta my head.

LESSER UNNECCESARY STRESS.

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sigh who would have ever known you'd be like that.

who would have ever thought everything would end this way.

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but ELENA IS A BRAVE, BRAVE GIRL. you and i know why :)
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and now she has to freaking get her head back to business!
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exams. exams. EXAMS.

honestly the stress aint as much as those stupid spm days

5 compared to 11 subjects. major LOL. how did i even get through that?
butttt, discipline needs to find its way back! SIGHHH.
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anywayy, here are some of 5 SCIENCE 1's REUNION picss.

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now SADCASE no 1 : DIWALI IS OFFICIALLY DURING MY FINALS! ughhhh how sick can that be? dad already made it clear that i can only pick one, YES ONLY ONE!, party to attend. i'm at least begging for two so it makes it equal if i can go for both mum's and dad's side. sighh this is not a good feeling at all!

SADCASE no 2 : since i've been so busy shoppin for my birthday, I TOTALLY FORGOT TO GET NEW PUNJABI SUITS FOR DIWALI! o-m-g. i'm so mad at myself now it's not funny. for obvious reasons, i cant tell dad i wanna go shopping now just one week before my finals. but I NEED A NEW SUIT! beg, borrow, steal. elena howww!

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my timetable is outtt, yes pretty long ago actually and i just thought i'll put it up here. share the pain :D

[ 15/10 - maths 1 ] [ 21/10 - thinkingskills 1 ] [ 22/10 - bio prac ] [ 27/10 - thinkingskills 2 ] [ 29/10 - chem prac ] [ 3/11 - phy prac ] [ 4/11 - maths 6 & chem 2 ] [ 10/11 - bio 1 ] [ 13/11 - phy 1 ] [ 16/11 - phy 2 ] [17/11 - bio 2 ] [ 20/11 - chem 1 ]

6 FREAKING WEEKS! i knoww. but it's good for last minute people like me. TEEHEE.

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and yes, i've come to a conclusion that i'f im doing medicine which is most likely, i'm definitely not doing all five freaking years in malaysia! and daddy agreeddd. yeayy. well hopefully i'd be out for five years but probably i wouldnt survive anywhere with noone that long. i see a future full of books, BIG FAT MEDICAL BOOKS. and i'd be specializing in pedeatrics. child specialist. it's what i always wanted to do. so yeay, hopefully i wouldnt be changing my mind anymore. and mum has to STOP discouraging me. somehow she thinks girls shouldnt be doctors, well she has a point but i'm not gonna let dad down. so yeah, it feels much better knowing that i actually have an aim in life. LOL.

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THINGS I HAVE TO DO AFTER NOV20TH!

- GYM, it's been at least 2 months i've last seen this place. although ive been suddenly losing weight, god knows how, i have to get back to gyming. i want muscles :D :D

- MOVIES, hell-a-lot that i need to catch up on. from english to hindi movies. and NEW MOON:)

- shopping, PROM AND XMAS SHOPPING! ive to get all my stuff for prom before nov29th and all my stuff for xmas before i fly to aussieland on dec18th :D well since i didnt shop for diwali, xmas shoppin shall be DOUBLE TROUBLE teeheee.

- a nice massage session with savira. and manicure plus pedicure. it's been ages since i last got them. girls need their pampering :)

- dye my hair, and GET A TATTOO! okay tattoo maybe not yet, but perhaps i can dye my hair this year. something diff for xmas. mummy, please?? and like i always say, if yoshnee can dye hers, WHY NOT ME! hopefully it works this time although ive been using the same excuse every-damn-time LOL.

that's it for now. wish me luck. i shall rock my finals. and i've a lot to prove to idiots out there :D xoxo

faith, hope and love.

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" HOPE is FAITH holding out its hand of LOVE in the dark. "

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updatesss people :D

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1. ELENA IS SEXY EIGHTEEN! for some reason, it feels so good to be legal although it doesnt make much difference. mentally, i feel hell-a-lot more matured now. lol it's soooo excitinggg. anyway, thank you everyone for the wonderful wishes, texts, calls all day long. those who took me out, thank you. last year, i was stressing for stupid add maths paper. this year, i can proudly say i rocked my 18th birthday. THANK YOU ALLL.

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2. HAPPY HALF CENTURY DADDY! after the very emotional moment at 12am yest of dad with his mum and siblings, all i wanna say is I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAD! im the luckiest person on earth because i have you, thank you so much for everything paps! may god give you success in everything you do and many, many, MANY more years to come. we hearttt youuu. i hope you liked my gift :)

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3. I MISS HIGH SCHOOL. after 5 science 1's reunion yest, ive come to realise that college sucks even more now. and it's not only me. LOL everyone wants to go back to school. sighh time flies. anyway, thanks suzzie for hosting the party, it was amazing. and im already missing you girls so muchh :(

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4. *cross fingers* i hope all my patience is paying off. When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad, they have to get better. YEAYYYY! im not saying anything yet. elena is recovering a little faster from all the sick stupid mental torture. thank you, 'YOU'.

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5. as usual, ELENA DOESNT FREAKING WANNA GO BACK TO COLLEGE TMR. however, i promise to start studying daddy. maybe like you said, i should at least try the papers. i will, god bless me. ALEVELS, ILOVEYOU :) ive been so strong going through so many things, one more wouldnt kill. elena, you can do this!

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xoxo

her final note as a 17 year old :)

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the day she takes her footstep into the legal world.

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one girl. one dream. one destiny.

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SEPTEMBER 24.

coming soon.

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here's a little something ive posted on my blog before.it means a lot to me.

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Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

Love the people who treat you right, and forgive those who don't.

Everyone deserves a second chance.

In a day, when you do not come across any problems,

you can be sure that you are travelling in the wrong path.

But believe everything happens for a reason.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,

doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If if changes your life, let it.

Never frown even when you're sad,

because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

Nobody said life would be perfect, they just promised it would be worth it.

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Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

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DON'T TRY SO HARD, THE BEST THINGS COME WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT THEM TO.

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nobody can imagine how excited i am turning eighteen. oh dear, it's a whole new world.
ELENA'S TURNING SEXY LEGAL EIGHTEEN BABY!

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the growing up days.
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LET US DO THE COUNTDOWN PEOPLE!

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my final note to 'you'.

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it's been a couple of months already and i've been thinking so hard everyday. it breaks my heart to think that maybe nothing was ever meant to happen. i try so hard to forget everything but as days go by, it becomes harder. and i'm finding all the strength i need to give up, not to carry on. at one point of time, everything looked so real, it was good thing changing myself for the better. but maybe we dont really get everything we wish for. like i always say, life goes on. as i turn eighteen, i tell myself i'd either make everything better or forget it all. looks like i have to take the suckier way now. everytime i make my decision, some freaking thing tells me that i should have hope. and mind you, ive been so strong you can never imagine anyone being like me. but it's a good feeling to have come this far. however, i still do not believe that at the end, the good people suffer and therefore maybe i'll be paid off in another way. i just wanted you to know that it's been so hard pretending everywhere i go and that you should have had more heart to feel this as well. it's funny how my poor blog has been so emo. LOL today's the last one i promise. it is time for me to wake up and realise that life is too short to hold on to things that do not make sense anymore. and i promised to myself that if you ever ask me anything, i will tell you everything from the very start. so yeah, the happy-go-lucky side of me needs to come back. and it only will once i get everything out of my head or if another miracle happens, for things to work out. anyway, i've gained so much of immunity through this and you always have to know where you've been, to know where you're going. up to date, so many freaking things have gone beyond my control and i try so hard to get it all back in one place but looks like im only clapping one hand. anyway, this whole situation has proved what kind of person you are or what kind of person you can be. you might have your own reasons but if you're never gonna tell me, how the hell am i supposed to understand? it's all up to you now. im turning 18, it's a whole new world like i said. and one thing for sure, God aint blind. so thats it. thank you for everything.

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xoxo