Feel.The.Adrenaline

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Too cold for you to keep her,

Too hot for you to leave her.

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10.10.10

I'M JUST HAPPY TO BE ME ♥

AFD.

TIME HEALS.

Happy Assumption Feast Day all! Let's hope Mary carries my letter with her (:

o.o

If I'm just gonna give up like this, call me an IDIOT!

If you're telling me this is the end, screw yourself coz i did not ask you! well i really didnt

It honestly aint easy going through times like this when you're so used to 'good times' lol

But hey, everybody needs a wake up call right?

If i've been so positive all way through, I can definitely go on.

Collect yourself, El.

I CAN DO THIS!

:)

Over The Rainbow ♥

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" When I let go of what I am,

I become what I might be. "

There was once a lonely girl who longed desperately for love. One day while she was walking in the woods she found two starving song birds. She took them home and put them in a small glided cage. She nurtured them with love and the birds grew strong. Every morning they greeted her with a marvellous song. The girl felt great love for the birds. She wanted their singing to last forever.

One day the girl left the door to the cage open. The larger and stronger of the two birds flew from the cage. The girl watched anxiously as he circled high above her. She was so frightened that he would fly away and she would never see him again that as he flew close, she grasped at him wildly. She caught him in her fist. She clutched him tightly within her hand. Her heart gladened at her success in capturing him. Suddenly she felt the bird go limp. She opened her hand stared in horror at the dead bird. Her desperate clutching love had killed him.

She noticed the other bird teteering on the edge of the cage. She could feel his great need for freedom. His need to soar into the clear, blue sky. She lifted him from the cage and tossed him softly into the air. The bird circled once, twice, three times.
The girl watched delighted at the bird's enjoyment. Her heart was no longer concerned with her loss. She wanted the bird to be happy. Suddenly the bird flew closer and landed softly on her shoulder. It sang the sweetest melody she had ever heard.

Do you realise?

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tight,

and the best way to keep it is to give it away.

and now, i'm giving mine away :)

I've come to realise that change is never easy. You fight to hold on, you fight to let go. But sometimes you have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to. Life is full of crazy moments that will drive you up the wall, but behind all that is a story just waiting to put a smile on your face. I can look back at so many things today and laugh, although they were the ones that made me cry earlier. Thank you Jesus for making me the strongest person i never knew i could become. So many things pulled me down, yet You picked me up with a whole new oppurtunity every single time. Thank you for helping me see You in everyone, learning to forgive and forget.

Please, please let me be myself again (:

“When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.”

xoxo

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my poor blog's dead :(

anyway, spent a week shopping in india.

feels good to be back i can say im a proud malaysian lol

being there made me realise how perfect life is back home

now too many things to look forward to here

cant wait for tmr, one step at a time :D

till then, toodles.

teeheee.

currently bitchin crapping with YOSHNEEEEE.

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THIS TIME FOR AFRICA!

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waka waka

:D

:)

one more elena, JUST ONE MORE!

what sort of paper was that?

ZZZZ

anyway, too many down, ONE TO GO!

yeay

lol know what, you're such a loser for giving up so easily. walked out of every problem leaving me trying to fix your shyt. what kind of person are you? sore loser.

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words cant describe how proud i am of myself right now.

YEAY ME!

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okay back to bio.

xoxo

i'm sorry,

just give me some time and i'll be all hyper again :)

so yeah, that dream did have a message. and i was so stupid to be ignorant.
i clearly should have known. pure bullshyt.
it wont happen again. i mean it this time.
trust me, i left a long time ago just to walk back again because i had nothing better to do lol.
but there's no freaking point saying you're strong everywhere and not being able to practice it when you face shyt like this.
plus, what am i to lose if i walk out of this picture?
LOL at least i saw your true colours. i should have believed everyone from the start.
should i listen to my head or my heart?
i think we clearly have the answer now.
and i AM still feeling quite happy and contented with life.
so it's gonna be much, much easier this time :D
xoxo

"EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER"

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dare to dream?

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i dont know if dreams have hidden meanings behind em but i had such a weird dream yest.

well obviously im not gonna mention it here but seriously,

it got me thinking.

WTF MAN. if there's a message through that, it's just not good.

ohshyt, i feel so weird now.

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I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW,

I FOUGHT TO LET YOU GO.

xoxo

WAVE YOUR FLAG!

WORLD CUP FEVER YO!

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im doing a double countdown,

to the end of my finals(june10) and to worldcup(june11)!

how cool is that?
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ARGENTINA

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BRAZIL
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ENGLAND
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GERMANY

poor ballack :(

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JAPAN

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KOREA

i used to be such a huge fan of ahn jung hwan. :D

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PORTUGAL

of course, i'll never skip this xD
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SPAIN

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i bet over ITALY only because my friends took the rest.

honestly, i have no freaking idea who the hell plays for italy but that's okay, all we need to know is that they won last year!
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WHEN I GET OLDER, I WILL BE STRONGER

THEY'LL CALL ME FREEDOM,

JUST LIKE A WAVIN' FLAG.

xoxo

♥

C.H.E.M.I.S.T.R.Y

killing me softly

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ELENA, YOU CAN DO THIS!

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i just had my grandaunt and granduncle over, who came to visit my mum. and somehow me and aunt rita got into a deep convo about my future and all that and suddenly to positive thinking. how so many things can change when you stay positive, how negative thoughts kill you slowly, how our own minds can build or destroy us.

we are the creators of our own destiny, she says.

a cancer survivor, she was fighting for life a few months ago, barely able to move. today she's up and about, looking all pretty and so full of energy,

OHMY SHE IS SUCH AN INSPIRATION!

i've become so positive and so strong over the past few months, but she made me realise that life is so much more beautiful and there's alot more to it than stress and pressure and all that bullshyt. now im just happy to be me and im happy for everything else, THANK YOU JESUS. ofcourse, thankyoutoo aunt rita.

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elena signing off, pray for me and chemistry :D

dear jesus, please give mum all the strength she needs =)

i finally went for facial like after 500 years lol.
song stuck in my head : BILLIONAIRE by Bruno Mars and Travis McCoy

OH EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES,

I SEE MY NAME IN SHINING LIGHTS!

should i listen to my head or my heart?